random ; life ; funyy :)

so lets start with funny. people be hating on unforgivable, but this shit is hilarious. this nigga is too bipolar. :)

so i was wondering ; what is swagg? to many hoes && nigas got it nowadays. i mean, half the people with "swagg" have a 100 dollar budget when shopping. like wtf.

FACT: my car is fixed and i got that shid backk :)) [my happy ass]

ANOTHER FACT: i'm getting kindaa popular on myspace. i iono why, but i don't really care. 15 friend requests a day is alright.

me and mike made up. i saw his ass today, looking as cute as he wanna. :) you be the judge.

thats my babe

♥

anywayyssssssssss......hoes are haters. not that i just realized this shit, its just that girls be staringg me up in down wondering, 'why is she so amazing?' you want the truth??? I'M MYSELF AND IM OKAYY WITH BEING DIFFERENT. fuck a crowd. i'll shoot all them mothafuckas :) lmao. just kidding.

so finally.....

QUOTE OF THE DAY: people are going to always try to outsmart you and outdo you in life, so don't just be the shit, be the shit AND the pee:)

its so frustrating;*

how boys can listen to their dumb ass friends who tell them old shit about you. shit that happened a year before and shit. ughhh. that pisses me off so bad. Mike's lil friend tells him about all this shit that happened last year and Mike brings it up but then doesn't wanna talk about it cuz "it'll start an argument". HELL YES IT WILL.
wtf does he expect me to do? sit there and admit that i used to be a very sad person with self esteem issues that did a lot of things for attention from ANYBODY. i used to be that peron his friend keeps telling him about and i DID DO all those things. it's liek no matter what life will never go on.
i'm so sickk of it and whenever Mike does bring that shit up like that, the rest of our lil conversation is completely ruined. i mean COMPLETELY RUINED. ;(
i'm tired of contemplating on the PAST. i am a different person than i used to be. i love Mike. i wish he would realize the present and hope for the future.

ughhh.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: i'm me;;*i'm what GOD has created me to be.what my mama raised me to be.what the the streets built me to be.and what the haters thought i would never be.nothing more, nothing less.

mike :)

okayy, so i went over mike's house yesterdayy :)

amazing. falling for him i guess. haha :). so i know the fair wasnt as great as i wanted it to be but i guess i was just expecting too much to happen at one time. mikle is a sweetie pie. i mean, like a boyfriend should, you know?
all the niggas i been wid been too "hood". i guess i was so used to a nigga treatingg me a certain wayy, that when i met a sweetie, i wouldn't appreciate. i do now. mike sends me a good morning text EVERY MORNING. not when he feels like it. calls me everynight- finally :). and when me and him walk, we hold hand like we should. i'm happy wid him. he's great.
so i figure i can be ith him for a while. he's cool. and today was our ONE MONTH. so i guess its going great so far.

:)
QUOTE OF THE DAY: "he best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with." -juno.

the fair.

well, where should i begin?

the beginning was wayyyyy better than the end. i went iwd tiff && mechie and it was all goody smokingg a black on the wayy over there && tiffs homegirl was SUPPOSED to bring a blunt so we could burn one...never happened. ANYWAYSS, i aint let that get me down. got on a couple rides wid mechie and tiff && had S0 MUCH FUN.
then...mike was supposed to meet me so we could chill and have bf/gf time or what not....NOPE. his ass ain't get there till like 9:30, then he couldn't follow directions of where to go. UGH. it angered me. then tiff && mechie couldn't wait fer nobody, so my ass got pissed and just had to walk that shid off. like wtf. could my night get any better.
so towards the end...MIKE SHOWS UP. its like ten minuted b4 i leave and here he is. so i figure, try not to get mad and get on the ferris wheel wid your boo :)....uh huh >:( .
we get on the ferris wheel. we cuddlingg and what not and we get off && he walks me to the gate. ughhhhhhhhh.....like i tried not to take shid he said too seriously, but i couldn't help but get agitated. if ya gf is caking wit you, you don't fckn pickle her. so then when we standing at the exit, this nigga LISTENING TO HIS DAMN MP3. ughhhhhhh.

so i have weird feelings about the night. i got on only like 5 rides, no kisss goodnight from my bf, NO BLUNT, and just FRUSTRATION.

ugghhh.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: people can make you feel like you're a box, so when you break out of your box- burn theirs.

kids getting TOO grown:*

i watched this video and vowed i would beat my child if they did anything like this. wtf. i mean they look about 5 dancing like they fckn or sumthing. and the worst part is, the crowd is pumping that shit up! NO! WE MUST DO BETTER. its ridiculuous, and people wonder why we have mothers at 14 and why the teenage pregnancy rate is so high. parents should teach their children better and want them to do better.

i was on myspace today like i am everyday, and i see statusesby 15 year olds talking about being "on they grown woman". bitch please. from experience, it's hard out there paying your way and living on your own. its freedom, yea, but it also comes at a high cost. shit, i appreciate free rent, cuz i've had to pay mine before.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: the grass is always greener on the other side until you're on the other side.

ha ha :)

that video is fckn hilarious. i had top post it cuz i watched it like 20 times this morning. lmao.

i'll post later.

well well well;*

my mama is on trip mode ONCE AGAIN. on some lazyy shit. talking bout i'm TOO lazyy. wtf. i'm a teenage girl! i'm kinda supposed to be lazyy...shit, she make it seem like i don't do NOTHING. i do. i clean my room...when it's needed. i wash my clothes...when i run out. and i do what i need to do to survive. damn. i'm not no muthafuckin house wife....so i ain't gotta cook all the damn time. she expect me to come home and cook. i cook for MYSELF when i'm hungry..ugh. wtf. my mama on some other shit. i'm STILL going to the fair saturday tho.

then, mike on some shittttttttt.......ugh. i like my boyfriends to CALL ME everynight. i don't wanna have to call him, and then when we get into a good convo his ass gotta call me backk....but NEVER does. ugh, annoying.

so yea, i can't go to the fair with mike friday, && i'm going saturday with my homegirl Tiff- i KNOW i'm gonna bump into Mike.....ugh, anyways. i guess i'm just one annoyed bitch today.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "You have absolutely no right to judge someone with so many problems; how dare you throw rocks when you live in a glass house." -Unknown.



:)

well well well

oh wow;*

i been really thinking about colleges lately and i'm sort of torn. I got accepted to Georgia Southern, so it's not like i have nay options. it's just that i really wanna go to Howard University in D.C. , but i know i'm gonna miss Drique. I guess i'll always have feelings for him, but honestly we're on this 'friend' thing right now. Really close homey lover friends shit, you know.

Anyways, my BOYFRIEND mike told me he loved me last night :) . wow. i know. i was about as shocked as yall are. omfg. nut i like him a lot, but i have a feeling i'm not getting over drique enough to put my whole self into him. HMMMMM! i don't know. only time will tell i guess.

but let me tell you bout these lame ass freshman at my school. they FAST. i mean i know when i was a freshmen i was kinda wild, but these lil freshman girls needa sit down tryna make it seem like they the shit...no honey, YOU'RE A FRESHMAN. you're lame, you have no rank, and i'm gonna talk shit to you...why? CUZ I'M A FCKN SENIOR. damn. get the hell over it. i had to go thru it so you do too. aha :)

the fair is this weekend and i'm going with mike, then with my homegirl tiffany :). i'm excited! i sound like a lil ass kid, but i really am excited. i cant even fckn wait. it's like a reason for niggas to get drunk and act a damn fool. haha :) ain't nothing like getting drunk and going to the fair and riding all the rides wit my niggs! oh yes....i might post again tonight :)


adios.

i love this songg && this video concept. its amazing. random vid for the day i guess :)

i finally bought some new tongue rings todayy. i needed some more, cuz changes in season mean changes in color. so yea. i got a bright green one and a bright pink one. neon colors are always sexyy.

man, i was on myspace today && it hit me that there's an ass of girls on mypace that wanna be 'official'. not as in that official girl type shit. i mean OFFICIAL. like famous or some shit. all i see is 'official page of....' ! i mean, damn. if you are YOU than you're already official right? lol. i KNOW i'm essence. i'm officially essence, so i don't think i need to put that shit up. i know who the fck i am, ya digg.

on to another thing, i was at the flea market wit ma dukes and my auntie today, and this random nigga stopped and shook my hand. i ain't think it was too weird, but then he told me and my mama that we looked alike and we were beautiful african princesses. wow. i mean, first of all, my mama is cocoa brown...i mean deep dark chocolate...and as you can see i'm not. i'm caramel. like wtf && plus the only thing alike on us si our smile && nigga in public me and my mama keep a mug. idk. people can be weird. i had to share that cuz it was crazyy.

i'm on some random shit today so excuse me. but i had to state that i appreciate evryone who reads all this bull i write. haha ;). i have a friend named adam newman and he goes on my myspage page everyday and reads this daily && i appreciate the fact he's facinated with this life i live. he says i make my own quotes. haha ;) i try; most of the time i don't cuz real shit is efortless.

so to wrap this up, we have a three dayy week at school cuz of fall break and on thursday i'm getting micros. i'm ready cuz i'm going natural and my hair is naturally puffy/wavy. so i don't really like dealing with it until it's loooonnnggg. so i got some time to let it flow. until then i'll have micros in my head ;)

smoke. love. live.

hmmm, can i ask a question?

why niggas act like they can run game but as soon as you do, they offended?
;]
nigga please. i mean damn. when i try a relationship, it fucks me all up. niggas crazyy. i mean, this doesn't to my situation right now but its funny how niggas switch up.
lol. ;]

but um, i had to askk that. niggs got me switched up. get play'd.

haha, but drique is all goody ;] [me love].

wow; whirlwind turns in my life

got a boyfriend, feeling my boyfriend, but still in love wit ronndriques [ the guy i lived with]. its crazyy. i don't feel guilty talking on the phone with him every night, but when i talk to my boyfriend [mike] i start to feel kinda bad [not guilty]. wow. i mean i don't really knwo how to feel right now. im sitting in the moddle of NOWHERE on a damn rockk. urrrgghhh =/

its hard enough knowing that i messed up shit between me and ronndriques, but its worse when i really wanna be backk with him WHILE I HAVE A NEW BOYFRIEND. he called me his 'lost puppy' last night and thats exactly what i feel like. i want him back. is that bad? maybe. maybe not. i love him. then there's mike who i' feelingg a lot right now && i know we can build a lil future, but i honestly want DRIQUE to be future.

wow. confusion.